When I was in college, I had a teacher that assigned me a journal for the entire semester...I hated it. I don't know why, I just didn't think that I had the time to write everyday. Now I wish I had. I could have written how I felt and what I thought about Charlie and his life. I have thought about it, and wish that I had documented his life, because I think his life would have made for a great book. All I can do is tell you that Charlie was my sweet, sweet angel. God knows that I miss him everyday and that I thank God everyday for the time I had with Charlie. Charlie is my hero...he never complained, never asked why and would always tell me that everything would be okay...God said so. It would appear that he had more faith than I did. But, one day, I will see my dear Charlie and be able to hug him and kiss him anytime I want. Until then, I wait.
Since my last blog entry, I have befriended some very dear mothers who have suffered the same ill fate as I, loosing a child. Ashley, Susan, Lori and I have been meeting weekly and as I told Ashley last week, when I leave the meetings, I feel lighter and look forward to seeing them next week. Before the meetings, I didn't look forward to anything, just making it to the next day. Thank you Ashley, Susan and Lori.
I have noticed that I never talk about how I feel, when I do talk about feelings, it is usually in the third person. Maybe one day I will be able to open up, for now, I still need to work on realizing how I feel. Soon, I will be able to open up, and God only knows it won't be pretty.
I'm so thankful for you Sharon. I just wish we would've became friends under different circumstances. Love ya!
ReplyDeleteI too wish that we had met under different circumstances, but I am more grateful for our friendship now, because I certainly need it more than ever now. Death may have brought us together, but love will keep us going...you are a dear friend and I don't thik my days would be as bright without you! love ya too!
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